Stop apologizing for the things you enjoy eating.
Stop apologizing for the things you enjoy wearing.
Stop apologizing for how you prefer to spend your day.
Stop apologizing for the things that make you happy.
People at school see me and I’m always happy and smiling and positive.
And showing this vulnerable unhappy side of me is embarrassing.
Sometimes I just can’t help it.
I overwork myself because I think I can do all these things, and I can’t handle them. And it bites me in the ass. And I’m trying my best to stay okay. But it’s so hard.
This has become such a horrible night.
I come home and I think everything’s okay. I’m taking to my mom about prom dresses and all of a sudden the conversation goes down hill. I was lectured for an hour about just everything.
How I take everything for granted.
How my time management sucks.
How I’m almost obese.
How I go out too much.
How I haven’t studied for the SAT or my AP exams.
And just everything makes me feel like I’m a horrible person. I’m just a burden. And I don’t have anything to contribute to this world. And I need to appreciate things more.
Sometimes I want to kill myself.
Sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve to live.
Why are you so attractive.
I had a really good salad for lunch today.
Don’t even wanna think about the HAP benchmark… Hopefully I did decently. Practice was fun ish. I’m nervous/anxious for the Dublin game tomorrow !!! Don’t have that much homework left today.. I should start my lit chart later so I don’t have to stress that much about it tomorrow/Wednesday !
Oh and I’m kinda scared for my leadership interview tomorrow 😱
That’s So Raven - My Big Fat Pizza Party
Shower, US History hw, eat cookies, pre calc hw, watch tv, prepare for Great gatsby fishbowl tomorrow, sleep.
After an hour of searching for the cute guy, I found out his name.
But he doesn’t have a Facebook, Instagram, or Twitter. What the hell.
Momma Digna and Poppy spent $350+ on me today because of my driving lessons, ap exams, and groceries. I feel so bad.. I will repay them somehow.
After I get my license, I’ll try and get another job. I have to start pulling my own weight.
I want pasta.
Decided to give up fast food for lent.
So like McDonalds, The Habit, 5 Guys, In n Out, Burger King, etc.
Basically anything with burgers and fries.
But Chipotle and Wing Stop and places like that don’t count. (Right ? LOL)
You’re cute can I know you